A realization hits Mack, the Great Sadness is gone.  He walks up to Jesus and they talk over his past, his present, and what his future might look like.  The conversation continues on into the rash judgments that Mack has made concerning a number of issues that we all struggle with –  Jesus lovingly corrects and explains His Truth to Mack.


Jesus directs Mack to a cave like entrance, which Mack unsteadily enters into. He comes to a chair sitting in the middle of an open space which he sits in, waiting for something to happen. As he did this, a beautiful Latina woman appears.

She begins a barrage of questioning that intentionally lead Mack down a path of his judgment. She asks him of repentance and then informs him that he will be the judge of God and the human race. She peels back the layers of Mack with a brutal honesty until Mack finally confesses that He’s angry at God.

The questioning goes on until the woman asks Mack to choose 3 of his children to go to hell and the other 2 to go to heaven. He screams at the woman that he can’t, he won’t make that choice. He offers himself in their place. The woman smiles and says, “Now you sound like Jesus.”

The woman continues on, teaching Mack about God, attempting to clean up his confusion about the sameness of God and Jesus. It is then that Mack sees his children together – all of his children playing with Jesus.

The woman pulls him back from the vision (for lack of a better word) and says, “Judgment is not about destruction, but about setting things right.”

Jesus finished off building a casket then He and Mack take a walk to the dock.  Their conversation opens up what Mack’s fears truly are.

(Sorry this one is so simplistic… writing much more gives away the whole chapter)

Sarayu (the Holy Spirit) shows Mack a messy, fractal garden. The garden is full of colors, herbs, flowers, plants. Mack describes it as a “chaos in color”…”confusing, stunning, and incredibly beautiful.” As they walk, Sarayu picks various herbs and plants and flowers, giving them to Mack and creating a bouquet.

She then gives Mack some garden tools and leads him to a secluded patch of absolute beauty—breathtaking. She asks for his help in clearing the patch because she wants to plant something else here instead. Stunned at her request to destroy something so beautiful, he joins her in clear-cutting the beautiful patch of garden. Their conversation turns to the topic of Good and Evil where Sarayu makes the comment, “You humans, so little in your own eyes. You are truly blind to your own place in the Creation. Having chosen the ravaged path of independenc, you don’t even comprehend that you are dragging the entire Creation along with you.” She also states that “humans have a great capacity for declaring something good or evil, without truly knowing.” She begins to question Mack about his ability to really know what is good for him or what is evil. He says a lot of it is based on how something or someone effects him…that somethings he thought were good turned out to be bad, and visa-versa. They continue to work and dialogue together.

Sarayu tells Mack that Evil is simply the absence of God, much like Darkness is simply the absence of Light, and Death, the absence of Life. That Evil and Darkness can only be understood in relation to Light and Good..that they do not actually have any existence. Light and Good actually exist. So by Mack removing himself from God plunges him into darkness. That is death because he has separated himself from God: Life.

The conversation turns towards Mack daughter, Missy, and he asks if she had the right to be protected. Sarayu says, “No Mack. A child is protected because she is loved, not because she has a right to be protected.” This floors Mack. She continues, “Rights are where survivors go, so they don’t have to work out relationships…” that “Jesus didn’t hold on to any rights; he willingly became a servant and lives out of his relationship with Papa. He gave up everything, so that by his dependent life he opened a door that would allow you to live free enough to give up your rights.”

Papa then arrives. Mack says how, though the garden is a mess, he somehow feels strangely comfortable in it. Papa and Sarayu smile at each other. Sarayu says, “And well you should, Mackenzie, because this garden is your soul—this mess is you! Together, you and I, we have been working with a purpose in your heart. And its wild and beautiful and perfectly in process. To you it seems messy, but to me, I see a perfect pattern emerging and growing and alive—a living fractal.” Mack crumbled. He looked at his garden and it really was a mess, but incredible and wonderful at the same time.

The chapter ends with Mack walking up to the workshop to look for Jesus so they can go for a walk…

This chapter opens with Mac dreaming.  When he awakes he isn’t sure where he is… and then he remembers that he’s hanging with the Trinity.

They all sit and eat breakfast together, teaching Mac through conversation and actions just who they are and where he stands in relation to them (Him).   They speak of man’s desire for power and control, of his lack of trust in their love for him, therefor their lack of relationship with him.

Chapter ends with Sarayu inviting Mac to work in the garden.  Mac agrees.

After enjoying an intimate dinner playfully made by the God-Trinity, Mack and Jesus head out to lay on the dock to stargaze and talk alone.  As they talk, the conversation shifts towards Jesus’ humanity and down-to-earthness, yet being fully God at the same time.  As their night together ends, The Great Darkness invades Mack again, but Jesus reminds him that he is with him and not lost.

This chapter is where Mack gets to start chatting with God. 

He spends most of the time with God the Father, discussing some of his preconcieved notions of what God might look like, act like, be like. 

He also learns that “This weekend is about relationship and love.”